I miss 90's grunge music...random I know

So I made it through Christmas somehow.  I may have been bored out of my mind but I made it.  My son had a blast! Santa was good to him (was easy he only asked for 2 things so everything else far exceeded his expectations).  I DID enjoy seeing the faces of those as they opened my gifts to them.  Other than that I was bored.  My husband literally slept off an on throughout the whole holiday.  We had to wake him up to open presents.  I left to go sneak off and buy a pack of cigs and dawdled around Walgreens for about an hour due to cabin fever...he never even knew that I left.  I got some nice gifts....but I was just bored.  I played with the fire in my fireplace damn near all weekend.  I burned everything.  All wrapping paper from the presents...all boxes that they came in...everything except the plastic parts.  That was the hi-light of my holiday.

I may have spent over 200.00 at Vickie's.  Got some shit that fits and makes me feel sexy.  I was happy that I did not lose a cup size just 2 inches in Girth. 

Went and got me some new jeans and clothes and stuff at the mall.  Retail therapy is nice.  I missed being able to be Natalie.  I missed hiding behind the computer.  I missed reading about all of you and our dysfuntionalities - if that is even a word.

Another short work week..but we are slowwww...so I shall be blogging!

So I will leave you with a little music that is going through my head right now -

The sign said long haired freaky people need not apply -
so I pulled up my hair and put on a hat and went in to ask him why -
He said you look like a fine upstanding young man yes I think You'll do -
So I took off my hat and said IMAGINE THAT, ME working for YOU!


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getting off early by force...new bra?

It happened...boss came in and is forcing me to leave no later than 3PM....
exhale...

Guess I will fight the crowds at the mall.  Not because I have to do Christmas shopping (that's been done for a while now).  I have to make a stop in at Vickies'...with all this weight loss (that I am grateful for) I unfortunately must go get a smaller bra (a lil less grateful for this).  I will miss my ample girls...but would rather be smaller everywhere else and have average size tatas then a chunky-stuff with fabulous breasts...I think lol!

Screw it maybe I will just buy me some new ones come income tax refund....

SOOOOOOOO tired with being obsessed with my body...but am proud that I am back in a size 7/8...was embarrassingly up to a 15/16 not so long ago!  Thank god for diet doctors and a lil will power...

but dammit I want my boobs back!  At least I still have my ass lol!

This may be my last post til Monday -

So until then...

GOOD DAY!.....I said GOOD DAY!

-Nat




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Time away :( SCARLETS back!!! :)

Well, I am sitting at work and we are dead...I mean there is NOTHING going on.  So, I have enjoyed visiting new blogs and learning of others lives.  I really enjoy it.  I am sad that I wont be able to be on blogger until Monday for fear of getting caught at home with this page. 

BUT...SCARLET IS BACK!  Just a few technical difficulties on her end.  Thank god!

Just an FYI...dont just delete and go away..ever...at least give a goodbye post....this chick right here is needy when it comes to closure hahahaha

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good blog!


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would rather be working...am I the only one?

Holidays...inevitable extra days off. I would rather work through them.  Thank GOD I work tomorrow.  I like to be here.  It is my escape from it all.  I leave my house when it is still dark and I don't leave until the sun is either about to set or setting.  I don't even take a lunch.  I can be me here.  Sitting here...right here.  In front of my keyboard.  Typing away to complete strangers or nobody at all. 

I can smoke a pack of cigs if I want...not that I do.  But half a pack that is doable.  I did leave work for a few today, however.  I was gone 6 minutes.  I left to get a few scratch off lotto tickets.  A few high dollar ones.  Blew through 100.00 bucks in less than 10 minutes.  I won 40 so I guess I only blew 60. 

I take my kid with me sometimes to work.  Those days are the worst because I really have no reason to leave work at all.  Sure, go home to my husband...watch him fall asleep on the couch...wake him up for dinner, watch him eat it on the couch, watch him fall back asleep.  Finally wake him up to tell him I am going to bed?  Nahh I would rather stay here.  3 day weekend.  DAMN.  Two of them in a row....double damn!

And my boss will probably insist I leave early tomorrow. 

I know I sound crazy...doesn't everyone WANT to go home and "relax" and spend time with their family? 

well...gonna go try to figure out how to personalize my lil blog thingy now. 

On a good note my weight loss is going great and I actually feel really pretty today.  At least there is that ;)



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Scarlet - No more?

So there is this blog that I love....and I follow her and she follows me and I believe she just deleted her blog -

This saddens me. 

Scarlet on the couch if you are still out there I will find you again...not in a stalker kind of way but in a I wanna continue to kow you kind of way...


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Make new friends...

Does anyone remember that old girlscout song? (with the exception of my newest friend/follower - he probably wasnt a Brownie)
Make new friends but keep the old..
One is silver and the other's gold. 
Repeat
Repeat
Repeat
infinity repeat

Anyway - happy to making some new friends on here. Having a decent day...all dressed up at work today going to some fancy shamncy luncheon for work.  I dont even have to put a fake smile on my face today!



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Lesbian tendancies?

While I have made it very clear in previous posts that I am not the hottest one in the room usually, I know that I can hold my own and turn a few heads from now and then.  For some reason, however, Women are more attracted to me then men.  Women are VERY attracted to me.  I run into this a lot.  So...am I into it?  Not really
Does that mean I have never tried it?
Not really

Situation numero uno:
I worked at this crazy ass "office job" when I was like 20 years old and apparently Everyone there was gay in some way.  Mostly the guys and a few girls I guess.  I never gave a shit...who am I to judge...if you are nice to me expect the same in return, gay, straight, if you have a huge horn sticking out of your head...doesn't matter any to me!  SO...I go to this party with this click...and this one beautiful I mean BEAUTIFUL Latina girl that I worked with was there.  They were all making me drinks and we were dancing and it was hot and exciting, she was all over me! Much different than with a man.  We were dancing and she was behind me just whispering hot tantalizing sexiness into my ear and it was driving me insane.  People were making out all around us.  Guy on guy, two guys and a girl, every combination you can think of (well nothing too nasty with like animals or dead people or anything!)  I had never been in an atmosphere like this.  So open, nobody cared who was watchin...many wanted you to watch, I was in awe of it all.  I guess I had a voyeur in me somewhere locked behind my young "innocence".  So back to the girl, she was so tender, every caress of my skin made my heart throb in my cotton panties.  We had not kissed on the lips, I had not touched her at all...she was just dancing behind me...the whispers in my ear oh GOD I can still remember how that made me feel, the hot wet breathing I could feel going down my neck and back up to my ear and then whispering again.    I cannot remember any of what she was saying but it didnt matter at all. When I close my eyes to remember this night I can smell her. The smell of lemons and rain.  It was captivating.  It still is when I remember it.  She turned me around to face her.  I did.  My eyes were closed.  She whispered in a tone that should have been spoken in a higher octave, "look at me".  I did as I was told.  My god she was beautiful.  Golden skin that was glistening, dark long flowing hair that was pulled up on one side with a small flower pinned in it as if she needed that to look any more exotic.  She had the figure that we all aspire for.  She was looking at me as if she was thinking these same things about me.  I was nowhere near the beauty she was.  Yet she had this desire in her eyes that made me feel sexy.  She held my hand and led me to the couch.  I am brought another drink.  She is as well.   I took a sip and she took the drink from me and set it down and leaned in and lightly...oh-so-lightly licked a droplet of the drink off of my lower lip.  It drove me nuts.  I was trembling.  Everywhere.  She asked if I was comfortable with that.  I said I have no idea what I am doing but I am not uncomfortable.  I told her I had a boyfriend and that I have never been with a girl and that I wasnt sure if I was ready or even wanted to.  (lies lies lies lies I wanted her to touch me for infinity...I wanted to taste her lips and my god I wanted her hands back on me!) She pulled away only slightly.  She handed me back my drink.  She says she wants to go to this gay club up the street and wanted to know if I would go with her.  She said she was having a girl tonight one way or another.  I was kind of hurt by that comment...WHY????  why the hell would I care?  We left, I drove...I cant remember the conversation in the car, none of it, at all.  i do know that while I was driving she somehow began running her hand up and down my thigh and finally she just settled her hand between my legs...the whole rest of the drive.  She knew how to drive me nuts.  I was dripping...I mean soaked...the next thing I remember we are in my apartment.  Never made it to the club.  I lived 45 minutes away from where the party was. I dont remember it taking long at all.  I have no idea how we ended up there or if I just drove in that direction to get what I wanted.  The next hour or so is fuzzy in my memory.  I know we showered and kissed and touched and it was so damn exciting!  We brought it to my room and she laid me down and pleased me...and then....then...it was my turn...to "return the favor"  I tried...I really did...I just couldnt for more than like 2 minutes...As excited I was for her to do all of these things to me...I was disgusted at the thought, the taste the...everything and I could not perform...she later told me that she thought for sure I would be relaxed enough from all the shit that they were putting in my drink!!!  Shit?  what kind of shit???  I dont even know...I know that there are gaps in the realities of this memory but not enough for date rape drug or anything that strong  It was a long drive back to drop her off...this was just a few friends hanging out for drinks on a random Tuesday...yep had to face them all at work the next day and they ALL knew my story.  I quit 3 days later...

Guess I am too selfish even drunk and drugged to be a lesbian 





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